New Baby Thoughts...

Love

This little life inside me amazes me! She is about to change my life forever. Everything is going to change. Will I really be that tired?... Will I be able to keep up with my house, hubby,work, and dogs? I have to get into a whole new routine. It is exciting and scary at the same time. My "normal" will be gone. I am planning on breastfeeding and I know that it is going to take up a lot of my time in the first few months of her life. I want the best for her and hope that I will be able to adjust to my new life as a mom as smoothly as I can. My good friends tell me the truth.... that it isn't as easy as we picture in our heads. It is harder than that.I know that Bella will be SO worth all the sleepless nights. I feel blessed to have a loving and devoted husband. I know that he will be right there with me every new step we take as parents.My mom is also going to be a great support. She is waiting on the edge of her seat to be a Grandma. I know she will be there for whatever we may need. I am starting to remind myself now even before she is here... to enjoy every moment with her. To be present and enjoy being a mom. If my to do list dosen't get done... its ok. I can't wait to look into her eyes and stroke her little head. Smell her sweet baby smell. We have waited for this little girl for a long time and I plan to enjoy every moment of this journey into motherhood. She is going to make us a "Family". I think that is my new favorite word. So many memories to come as a Family.

I am 38 weeks pregnant now. 1 cm dialated as of Wednesday. She could come at anytime. I am waiting for the painful contractions to start or my water breaking. I guess we just know when it is time.I am still getting the Braxton Hicks contractions. My body sure does like to practice! Junior wants her to come on a weekend. That would be better for work. ha,ha. We will see about that. My sis, and mom think she will come on the 2nd. I am really not sure. Her head is down and she is in position. I thought I would have more of an intuition. I can wait as long as she wants. I will have her for the rest of my life.Wow, isn't that amazing! So if she wants to wait the whole two weeks thats ok with me. I love you Bella!